Who doesn’t make new resolutions every year!?! Among the usual resolutions of eating healthier, losing weight, setting aside some ‘me’ time (something that this mom rarely does), I’ve also resolved to take up those things I used to love. Those things that made me, well, me. For as long as I can remember, I have loved to write. My favorite class throughout all my school years was all my English/Literature classes and every other class that had extensive writing in it. When I wasn’t doing hours of homework, I was reading everything I could get my grubby little hands on and writing my own poetry.
In 2009, when I started this blog, it was in the attempt to escape the reality of what was going on around me. My marriage was falling apart, my daughter was ill (we later found out she has Celiac disease and Autism), and I just seemed to be falling further and further down the rabbit hole. I tried to keep up and be diligent, but it wasn’t the lack of desire to do it, it was the depressing reality that those that go through a divorce know, just how far down it can drag you. It wasn’t something I wanted to share and I couldn’t authentically write about anything exciting or happy in my life. The madness in my life had gone from normal to insane.
It’s been several years now since the divorce and I’m happy to say, I’m making my way back to being me. It took 15 years in my first marriage for me to get to where I was and I know it won’t be an overnight process to get back some of who I was. But these baby steps are going in the right direction. I still escape reality occasionally by cuddling up with a good book, but I do it because I enjoy it, and that’s a very good thing. I’m back to writing, and like opening up an old wound, it’ll be a journey to pour out all that has built up and festered without an outlet, but I’ll get there.
So, all that to say, I’m back to blogging and as you can see, the changes keep coming. I’ve moved on to my own domain and no longer on Blogger. It was limiting and with all new things, I wanted to venture out, try something new, and go from there. Of course my head is spinning from learning code, building a website, making it my own, etc., but I’m determined.
So keep tuned in because these flood gates have definitely been opened.